life just got turned upside down this week for me. I am not going to get into specifics but I need prayer to be able to get over this guy who professed to love me. Some of you know who he is. But he cheated on me twice in the past 6 months and have 2 different girls pregnant. He has been lying to me for a long time and it didnt bother him. he said he really had strong feelings for me but he lost them. I dont see how someone could lose strong feelings like that. He even gave me a promise ring. But that all went down the drain. I just cant lose feelings like that for someone. I am glad to find this stuff out now before it got any more serious. Now I cant really trust any guys in a relationship setting. the guy that i had come to care for last year is not the guy that he now. he has changed into a person that i dont like. he is trying to blame everything on me when he made those decisions not me.

I am planning on moving at the end of this semester. I dont like the school here. I stayed due to this guy. But now thats over i am gone. I need wisdom to figure out where i need to go and what I need to do. I am looking at moving to Kearney, NE and go to school there. They have what looks like to be a neat Masters program and it will be neat to be close to jen :)

also, i wonder if I missed having a chance with an certain guy some of u know who he is. he stopped talking to me when this stupid dude and i started dating. I hope I can talk to him soon. I miss talking to him. He knows who he is. Please get in contact with me!!!

thanks for all ur prayers.

miss ya'll

oh, my grandmother is not doing to well. It is a matter of time now. I dont know if i could put up with that right now.

i am also thankful for the wonderful friends i can turn to when I have problems. They are the best. I am greatly blessed by all of them. Thanks.

Cant wait to move from here!!!!